The lessons we learn

This has been a year of extraordinary growth and learning for me. I have learnt that as much as you try to talk sometimes people just don't want to listen to what it is your saying, whether whispering it in a yawn or letting it go like a floating breeze, people don't care.

I have learnt that I expect to much from everything including myself... and its always wrong because in my mind its perfect... therefor I will always disappoint myself and always be disappointed. sometimes it is better to simply let it role of your back like a dew drop of a leaf. its not worth all the energy it will take to sort it out or fuss about it.

don't expect anything and you ll never be disappointed.

I have learnt that no matter what happens I will always miss those I have lost, it will always rip my heart like a razor blade, the only difference is sometimes I have a plaster in my bag and some times it bleeds for a while.

I have learnt that not everyone is going to want to be my friend, be a good friend to me or treat me right but that I have to be the person at the end of the tears thinking what is it that you will bring me tomorrow. I want to surround my self with like minded people with values and morals that fit mine. people that will forgive the mistakes I make, help me up when I fall and laugh with me when the times are good.

I learnt that you really cant trust everyone when they say they have your best interests at heart, when they say things to you in private all the while behind your back you are simply the puppet on a string and they are choking you with.

I learnt that not only must i hold some secrets tighter to my chest that the stitching around my lips needs to tighten too.

I learnt that somethings are so beautiful and true that there must be something bigger and better out there in order for this pure joy to be able to be in my soul.